dating HEMATO and the last day for me to be a carnivore...

today was the 1st day of hematology remedial class....

i had fun...i actually learned alot....

i got to pass this paper....

total lectures to study....44

total days left for exam....7

planning to finish 10 lectures today....

hope i succeed.....

i and 27 of my classmates got barred from a lab in OSCE....

Gram staining....one of the easiest lab....

so we decide to met the doctor in charge....

to ask for forgiveness since he barred us coz we were to bz with our own life's n din attend the basic clinical skill class.....

its not always the doctors fault....sumtyms the students oso too much....

im telling myself actually.....

but he was kind hearted enough to set another day for us to sit for the exam.....

yeah!!!!! wat a relief....

i was supposed to clep till 6.....

closed my eyes at 2.30 pm.....

but then i was waken up by a text at 3.40pm....

from my princess....

goin for makan...wanna cum....

i decided to go....

went and ate nicely in bu cehing....

since from tomorrow onwards im vegetarian....

thats about everything that happened today.....

no one made my day turn sour....

now im off to date my hemato books.....

my HEAVEN had sum clean ups to do.....

today has been a very tiring day....

i woke up in the monin and decided my room needs sum cleaning to do....

exams are cuming up...n if i dnt clean them now...

i might not get the chance to clean them soon....

i rearrange the furniture in my room....

swept...moped....washed the dishes...wash the bathroom.....and organized everything in order....

no more books on the floor...

all clothes nicely hanged....

my room looks gud now....

i feel so happy and comfortable....

its nice to have a clean room....with the smell of the air refreshener....

PILLOW TALK or TABLE TALK....the bigger question..will u understand....

if sum ppl are nice to u....

there is always a reason for it...

its either they really care for u...

or they are simply using u.....

but the stupid thing is....

i feel u make so much effort to be nice n help those who use u...

wen those who really care for u...u treat like dirt...

im sorry la chayunk....i love u...

and im gonna be patience with u attitude...

but i think its high tym for u to realize that...

talks after talks to make u realize...

but nothing seem to work....

im not great la...i have screwed things up b4 oso...

i agree...n i changed....

but u neva have...ur elder than me...i kno...

but that does not mean i will shut up wen u disrespect me n my princess...

we are the oni ppl who honestly care for u...n yet we are the last ones u seem to worry about...

ur words can be very hurtful at times...n u talk like u wanna pick a fight...

i was u b4....i kno how is it to be in ur shoes...

its easy to say things and break sumones heart...

but its hard to pick those words back n make them love u back....

princess said WE SHOULD HAVE A TABLE/PILLOW TALK....

i agree with her...but u will neva understand....n u will neva change...but yet im gonna try....

ur turning me into the gurl i was b4...

i dnt wan to fuck u up...and i hate being rude to u...

but i dnt kno how to talk to u anymore....

i was extremely nice to u wen we 1st met....

lately i feel like y should i respect sumone who treats me like shit....

i have already told u to stop it...n i hv already told u wat i dnt like about u...

i dnt aspect u to change for me...change for urself...

the world is not all about u...n ur not living in it alone...

its because of ur attitude that u feel like ur an island...

so ppl treat u like ur one...if u dnt like isolation....

then dnt live like an island...live like a community...

so learn to take care of those around u....

COZ THEY WONT PUT UP WITH U FOR LONG.....

OSCE plz do suicide b4 i do!!!!!

hahahaha.....i fucked my OSCE up...

had 7 labs....

1st lab was about a pic of a boil....

n i was supposed to find out wat kindda boil was it......i did it well...AWESOME

2nd lab...was blood swear....it went well...AWESOME...

but then the other section was about counting the mounth of leukocytes...

there were so many off them.....HOW THE FUCK TO COUNT.....

stupid doc scolded me...DUDUK DAN KIRA JANGAN KELUAR SAMPAI DAPAT JAWAPAN....

ish...geram

3rd lab was about sum inflammation thing...i carpped the whole thing...FUCKED UP

4th lab was about a pic of sum guy....its psoriasis vulgaris but i tersilap wrote pempfigus vulgaris....FUCK...thuvi bodoh

5th lab was fecal examination...i had todo the procedures of testing sumone shit...eewwww...AWESOMEly done

6th lab serology examination....forensic stuff....i din even study the lab...good thing CSI series helped me out in it...oni managed to answer the 5th question...FUCKED UP....

now waiting for my 7th lab....

i confirm u i will pass that....

coz im well prepared oni for that....

u surprise me....

how is it possible that sumone can turn ur day upside down...

and at the same tym make u feel like ur a princess....

im glad i have that sumone....

no matter how bad things are between us...

i realize u always take extra effort to make it right....

juz wen i was thinking ur a jerk...

u proved me wrong....

saya amat sayang pada mu.....

i kno after walking another few decades in my life....

i can still c u beside me....

making me laugh and bully-ing my parents....

u mean the world to me....

n i kno no matter wat u say....

end of the day if u dnt make things rigth u cant sleep well...

i thought i was the oni one...

u surprise me every single day....

will be meeting skin again......

exam was a blast....litterally....i think i blasted half of my head....

the question look so short n easy....but the answer were juz like dumb luck....

so many things i studied and half of it i forgot....

panic attack or wat i dnt kno....

but this is bad news....

terms that really fucked the papers up were :

Pilli torti - 3 questions gone

Ichtyosis Vulgaris - 5 question gone

terms that i got mixed up :

Arterial ulcer and Venous ulcer

Besnier's purigo and Prurigo Chronica Multiformis

terms that i was lucky in was :

Angioedema and Urticaria - i din do a single work for my paper work...but at least i paid attention wen my group leader did the presentation....hahaha - saved 5 question

wat the fuck tomolo got OSCE summore.....

the conclusion i think i will bw meeting u SKIN on the 1st March 2011....

I AsPeCt U tO......

i aspect u to be there for me...

i aspect u to catch my tears b4 they fall....

i aspect u to respect me....

i aspect u to send me a gud monin text....

i aspect u to send me a gud night text.....

i aspect u to wish gudluck.....

i aspect u to wish me happy bday....

i aspect u to dream of me....

i aspect u to see me as the oni gurl in the world....

i aspect u to be truthful to me...

i aspect u to not have an ego wen it cums to me....

i aspect u to say im wrong wen i am....

i aspect u to agree with me wen im right....

i aspect u to hug me wen u sleep...

i aspect u to keep ur chest available oni to me....

i aspect u to look me in the eye wen u talk....

i aspect u to sing to me....

in all this things.....

i aspect u to love me juz the way i am

ANGEL wings tattoo

i love tattoos.....

and i love angels too....

i might not be a 100% angel....

but i find an angel wing tattoo cool....

if i could go through piercing my tongue without a tear...

i wanna kno wats my limit....

how bad will it hurt....

and if it does....

where would i start crying....

its not wrong to push urself to the limit....

but there is 3 small problem....

the guy that im in love with has to agree.....

n his family should be open about it....

but the most important thing is....

my parents need to decide to keep me in the house as a daughter o not????

so for now....

this will be one of my to do things....

but i give my word.....

i will surprise u guys one day by getting it done...

tongue stud by medical student

many ppl think im a wild child....

well i would not disagree....

yes i am a little wild....

i like bringing things to a different level....

n i hate being a stereotype....

life is about diversity and variety....

we should do things our way....

i am the oni medical student in my uni that has a tongue stud....

sumthing it disgusting....

so wat....ur living for urself right not other....

so juz give a FUCK....

sumthing is MISSING...but im still luvin it

there is a guy in my life....

he is not a bf type....

he is more to a husband type....

i love him with all my heart....

but yet sumtyms i feel its a waste....

his frenz claim his lucky to have me....

but y dnt my frenz say the same....

yes he makes me laugh.....

he makes me forget all the bad things in life....

but wat i dnt get is....

is laughter, jokes, and chats enough in life....

sumthing is missing....

n im yet to find out wat is it....

y cant love come easily...

its suppose to be easy....

I can ROCK the look.....

it has been a long tym that i have been thinking of cutting my hair....

and one month ago i got the guts to do it....

finally i have the hair style i wanted to see myself in....

i dnt care if i look like a guy.....

nor do i care if a gurl asks me out(by the way 3 already did)....

i juz am too curious....

i wanna kno whether i can rock the look or not....

my current hair style looks like keira's....

thinking of growing it long enough and doin the half mohawk like rihanna....

and then a total boy cut like halle....

i wan this year to be a short hair year to me.....

i love my long hair....

and i always willl....

but i guess its not wrong to have varieties at some point in life....

P.S : if ur kolot minded and u think i should learn to have long hair n not try out short hair....plz dont be my fren...ur killing me since ur KETINGGALAN ZAMAN

INSOMNIA

i have been having difficulties sleeping for the past one month....

have been awake since yesterday monin....

n im still not tired yet....

watched so many movie in one day.....

my brains juz does not wanna shut down....

im not happy nor am i sad.....

i juz hope i dnt go mad...

as im already crazy enough.....

the times is running so fast right in front my eyes....

but i yet cant get any sleep....