a year has gone

i have been in bali officially for a year on 20th August 2010.....time fly's by really fast....so many has happened....so many things i wanna remember and i wanna forget....those who were my best frenz are now just batchmates....i learned to not trust anyone....n those who put me through hell or the ones i never knew i would even say hi are actually the pillar who are holding my body up....no one can stay strong for long....i remember those days where i was the bully and no one dared to step on me....i guess my mums wishes came true...i actually forgot how to get mad at ppl....so many stupid things happened around me...n yet i choose to keep quiet....i choose to take the silent path...i was always a fan of GANDHI...but seriously this is weird....i guess life hardens u as u learn....i learned a lot about how to be snake headed....one thing my elder sis always to me to be...its hard to be snake headed wen u only have a human head...hehehe....my sister was right....ppl can be nasty....n trust me i learn that the hard way....no matter wat i do im still not good enough for sum ppl....so i made my mind up...keeping myself n those who love me happy is my only goal...i dont wan to be accepted by some for something im not....coz sooner or later my makeup will fade...n they will know the real me...at the same time those who love me are always beside me even when im in my worst condition....those are the ppl i want to b there for....coming bali has changed my life so much....im still dumd here n there....n im still blur (abit only)....but i kno i have changed....and i kno one thing....do not trust anyone no matter wat happens....too bad my 1st bond with my frenz is trust....i kno those who i love neva broke it...and they wont break it too...but to those who have already broken it....dnt waste ur tym....I'LL SHOW U THE WAY OUT OF MY HEART....FUCK OFF ASSHOLES....i will c u burn soon.....